Sean sat out on the balcony of his apartment with his feet propped up on the railing. He was finally moved in after his divorce. It had been a long and bitter battle just as he knew it would be and he had waited to find himself a new home until he know how much this act of insanity was going to cost him.

Shaking his head as if it would clear the negative thoughts, Sean reminded himself that he hadn't been giving his wife and marriage the attention they disserved. His heart just hadn't been into it.

It wasn't what most people thought either. He knew that his ex thought that he had some groupie tucked away somewhere. Chuckling to himself Sean shook his head again this time in amazement. As if he would leave her for a groupie… please, that would only be moving from one bad situation to another.

It wasn't that he didn't enjoy women and even groupies… 'Cause he did. Women fascinated him. Their bodies were so different than a man's was. Hell their entire being was different. For a couple hours here and there they supplied enough distraction that he could forget about where he really wanted to be. Sean sighed.

He had been hiding his attraction to his friends and co-workers for so long that he had no clue how to be open about his feelings. Not even the Kliq knew and they were his closest friends in the world. He was so confused. There was only one person who knew he was bisexual and he had never figured out how she knew. She just did! Sean laughed. Angel was probably the "groupie" they thought he was gonna shack up with. He wasn't really sure how you could call a virgin a groupie though.

"How did I know you would be out here moping?" Angel asked as she stepped out onto the balcony.

Sean was so surprised that he almost fell out of his chair. "Jesus Angel," he said as he sat up in the chair putting his feet on the ground, "you scared the crap outta me."

"What are you doing here?"

Angel smiled down at her friend. "I came here to cheer you up!"

"I considered fucking your brains out, but I realized that wouldn't work."

"Oh, why not?" Sean asked smiling. Somehow Angel always managed to be there just when he needed her most throwing some smart-assed comment at him to make him laugh and smile.

"Well see I had no clue where to start and then I decided that unless I grew a penis you wouldn't be cheered up anyway," she responded laughing at him.

Sean rolled his eyes, "I do socialize with women occasionally you know."

"It isn't like I have never fucked one."

"Socialize?? Come on Sean," she mocked making a face at him. "You spend 2 hours in bed with a couple groupies trying to fuck them through the mattress while trying to forget you would rather be in the next room with one of the boys."

Sean sat silently looking at her wondering again how she knew things like that. Angel meanwhile returned his stare for a few minutes before turning and heading back into the apartment murmuring something about getting them drinks. He sat there looking at the spot where she had been standing before getting up to find out what she was doing. He suddenly had to know how she had figured out his secret when no one else had.

He found her in the kitchen rinsing out two of his new glasses. He noticed that she had placed a couple bottles of Pepsi on the counter with an ice cube tray and a bottle of chocolate syrup. She glanced up and smiled at him. Sean didn't think he would ever figure her out. Maybe that was why they were suck good friends.

"What's up Brat?" she asked affectionately.

Sean silently groaned, "I thought Kid was bad. I'm gonna kill Scotty."

Laughing at him Angel turned and put ice in the glasses then handed him a glass and a pop before turning and putting the tray and remaining ice into the freezer. Then turning to Sean she asked him if he wanted to watch TV or go back out onto the balcony.

When Sean just stood there guardedly looking at her while he fooled with the hem on his shirt, Angel grew concerned. Setting her glass down on the counter, she walked over to him and put her arms around his neck. "What's wrong, Curls?" she asked.

"Ang, do you think we could just… like… talk tonight?" he asked trying to look anywhere but at her.

Angel put a finger under his chin urging him to look at her. "Sean, sweetling, we have been friends forever. Tell me what it is. Are you upset about the divorce? I know it is tough but I thought you decide this was what you wanted."

Sean snorted as he made a face. "The divorce is probably one of the few intelligent things I have done… ever possibly."

Taking his bigger hand in one of hers and picking up her pop with her other, Angel led Sean back out onto the balcony where she sat him in a lounge chair. Turning to face him Angel sat down in the same chair, "talk, Curls," she ordered.

Looking frustrated he asked," what do I do now?"

"I have spent my entire life making sure no one knew I was different. I don't know how to do anything but hide. What if I did all this and I end up alone? What if none of the guys wants me now? Hell they will probably laugh their asses off at me. I mean in 29 years you are the only person who has guessed."

"You are kidding right?" she asked looking shocked. "Do you REALLY think no one else knows?"

"I mean I can't comment about the looker room as a whole or even most of the Kliq for that matter. I do know for a fact though that at least Scotty knows. His girlfriend and I talked about it once. As far as everyone else goes… I am sure it will work out and I can be around if you need me to be."

"What do you mean Scotty knows," Sean asked angrily jumping up from the chair and stalking into the living room of his apartment. Angel followed a little reluctantly not eager to have her head handed to her when she hadn't done anything wrong.

"How could you tell him? I thought we were friends? You SWORE. I told you I didn't want anyone to know." Sean paced restlessly back and forth across the room as he ranted and raved. "Who else have you told? And how in the hell do you know anyway? Do you have some sensor that went off in your head or what? Is this some strange psychic power of yours? Jesus angel, I thought you were my friend. I can't believe you told Scotty."

While Sean was ranting and raving apparently trying to place holes in his new carpet Angel had sat down calmly on the couch and was watching him while trying not to get seasick. In the entire time she had known him, which had been several years, she couldn't ever remember seeing him this agitated... not over something that had anything to do with him anyway. Mess with one of the other Kliq members and he'd be all over you in a heartbeat. Mess with him and he barely broke a sweat.

Curiosity finally got the better of her though and she just had to ask, "what are you worried about and what do you mean I TOLD Scotty? I mean he is one of your best friends. Why would you think I of all people had to TELL him about YOUR sexual preferences?"

Sean waived his arms in an agitated fashion. "What am I worried about? Are you serious?? Jesus Angel sometimes I can't believe how dumb you are. Do you have any idea what is going to happen now? Damnit I swear to God. I know you are just some uptight virgin, but I wonder if you have any clue about anything. What do you mean what makes me think you told Scotty? YOU JUST SAID YOU DID!! What kind of fucking moron are you? I can't believe you did this to me and you don't even seem to care."

Looking at her hands Angel replied quietly, "I never said that I TOLD Scotty anything."

"I said that Scotty knew and I said that his girlfriend and I talked about it one day. I didn't have to tell Scotty anything... he isn't stupid, Sean. I am sure the whole Kliq knows you want THEM in bed more that that hootchie you just divorced. I promised you I wouldn't tell anyone and I didn't. You are my friend or at least I thought you were. After hearing what you think of my loyalty and intelligence I am starting to wonder. I don't understand why you are worried that your best friends know. They love you and as far as I know they all fuck each other like bunnies. So I don't see why YOU wanting to join them would do anything but give them all simultaneous hard-ons'."

"As for how I know… well it was kinda obvious. The first time I met you… you were standing backstage with a lump in your trunks that looked like you had added the Hogg to your own dick. Scotty was bent over lacing up his boots doing his damnedest to show you his ass. You were happily ogling him like his butt was the best thing since lube was invented. About 2 seconds later you bolted out of the room… I am assuming to go take matters into your own hands… literally. Somehow I doubt that it took Scotty long to figure out you want him and I also doubt that was the only time someone caught you. It is just I am the only one "DUMB" enough to say something. I thought I was being supporting all these years but OBVIOUSLY I was just being an UPTIGHT VIRGIN. Shit Sean half the locker rooms of WCW and WWF probably know you want to fuck Scotty more than you want to BREATHE. And the ones that don't KNOW at least suspect I am sure."

"The next time you are upset remind me not to come over here and try to cheer you up. Frankly I don't need to sit here and listen to YOU throw insults at me just because you are scared shitless and don't have the balls to trust that your friends who will love you no matter what to do or are." With that Angel stood up leaving her pop on the end table next to the couch. She then started to head towards the door as if she was going to leave.

Angel didn't get more than halfway across the room however before Sean was jolted out of the state of shock her quietly spoken words had thrown him in. Realizing she was moving to leave him Sean reached over and put an arm around her waist. His other arm was thrown across her neck and shoulders as he hauled her back against him resting his cheek on the top of her head. "God Angel, I am so sorry. Don't leave me please." Over the years a lot of people has walked into and out of Sean's life, but never had he known someone who gave him so much and asked for so little out of him in return. She just seemed to accept him for what he was and stood behind him no matter what dumb-ass thing he did. The thought of her walking out of his life scared him more than anything else could.

"I am a dumb prick. You are one of the smartest and most loyal people I have ever known. I don't know what came over me. Please... I will do anything… just don't leave me. You are probably my best friend. God I can't loose you, too." Sean tightened his grip on her more getting more panicked by the second at the thought of her walking out of his life. She was a person he knew he would never be able to replace and if she walked out there would just be forever this empty hole where she used to be.

Turning in his arms Angel put her own arms around his neck and rested her head against his shoulder. To her Sean was something more than just a friend but not quite a boyfriend either. She tried not to think too much about her own feelings for him knowing that while they played a little occasionally Sean thought of her more as a friend than anything else. There was little potential that she could see for them becoming anything serious and didn't want to lose the close friendship they had. While she rarely got mad at Sean when she did she always forgave him because she knew his outlook on life was messed up by his abnormal childhood and there were things that for all his tough exterior he just didn't understand about love and relationships. Heck she was pretty sure she knew more about that shit and she was the one who was a virgin. "It's ok Curls," she reassured him. " I know you didn't mean it."

Angel then lifted her hand and stroked the side of her friend's face. "I know you are scared. But WE will get you through this. You aren't alone here Sean as much as you seem to forget that fact. The Kliq and I love you and we aren't gonna just abandon you when you have fought so damn hard to finally be you. I promise, Curls."

She then turned her head to place tiny kisses along his collarbone through the cloth of his shirt. Lowering her hand Angel grabbed his shirt at the back waistband of his jeans tugging the material out. She then slid her hands under his shirt running her hands up his back then down and towards the front. Once there she pulled the rest of shirt from his jeans. This accomplished Angel ran her hands over Sean's hard muscular stomach. She loved the way he felt.

While Angel was doing all this Sean had lowered his head down and was placing tiny kisses of his own on the back of her head and neck. Lowering an arm so that both encircled her waist Sean maneuvered so that he could gently nibble on her bottom lip.

Angel decided that she needed better access to his chest and shoved the shirt up urging him to pull it over his head. When he had done this Sean took advantage of the time and pulled her shirt up and over her head in one swift motion as well. Looking at Angel's face Sean sighed with contentment, "Baby, I need you."

Angel smiled that smile as old as time and pushed him back until he was standing in front of the couch with the backs of his legs touching the cloth. She then ran her hands across his chest lightly raking it with her long fingernails. Sean's head fell back with a slight moan as one of her hands ventured from his chest to the crotch of his jeans lightly stroking him through the heavy cloth.

"Baby, please don't tease," he whimpered.

Angel lowered her head to his chest licking and nibbling her way across it's width as she continued to stroke him with one hand and his ass with her other. Suddenly she stopped and grinned at him. "You know I have been dying to try something from one of those stories you and that demented girlfriend of Scotty's keep sending me… you game??"

Sean chuckled as he grew slightly harder wondering what she had in her mind. "I believe that Paul is The Game but, I can pretend if you'd like," he offered.

At that Angel laughed and swatted his chest before she bounced from his grasp. Promising she'd return quickly and instructing him to be butt naked when she got back, Angel danced into the kitchen and grabbed the chocolate syrup off the counter where she had placed it earlier to come up to room temperature. She then rushed back to Sean with eyes sparkling with anticipation.

Sean had quickly disrobed and was perched on the edge of the couch. Angel immediately pulled him back to his feet and resumed kissing his chest letting her free hand roam aimlessly. Angel moved her mouth to suck on one nipple until it was hard then switched her attention to the other doing the same to it. Sean was once again moving restlessly trying to urge her to move faster. Moving both of her hands behind his back Angel poured some of the syrup into one of her hands pausing to make sure it was warm enough before cupping him. Moving her hand up and down Angel worked to coat him with the syrup making sure he was completely covered.

Sinking to her knees Angel lifted her eyes to gaze into his eyes briefly before turning to his swelling member.

Taking her tongue Angel ran it along the length of him circling the sensitive tip then slipping him into her mouth to suck some of the chocolate off of him. She then moved her mouth back up his length as she ran the hand she kept covered in the syrup over him. Once back at the head she then repeated the process each time taking him a little more into her mouth.

During this Sean had buried his hands into her hair trying force her to speed up. Angel continued the routine at her own speed though relaxing her throat a little more each time until she had his whole length in her mouth and throat.

Sean was so distracted with the actions of her mouth that he didn't notice she had once more circled her arms behind him until she ran a chocolate covered finger over his opening. Sean gasped and pulled back slightly wanting to confirm his suspicions at her action before getting his hopes up too high.

"Angel baby, do you know what you are doing?" he asked unsteadily.

"Not fully," she said grinning," but Scott gave me this brief verbal lesson one day in anal sex and I think I have an idea here if you'd like to try."

Sean eyes her with interest. This was Angel after all and there wasn't another woman on the planet he trusted more. "Ok, but I've never done anything like that you know so…"

"Yeah well that makes two of us so I guess we will learn together huh?" and at that Angel returned her mouth to him sucking him and teasing him with her tongue until he was relaxed once more.

When she had him relaxed again Angel again reached behind him and covered her hand in syrup before running one finger over his entrance and slipping it into him.

Sean gripped her shoulders at the invasion. Angel paused and removed her mouth from him as she tilted her head up to ask him if he was ok.

Sean had his head thrown back with his eyes shut. "Sean are you ok? She prompted.

"Yeah I am ok. Don't stop… please," he pleaded.

"Are you sure?? We don't have to do this if you don't want to. I am sure we can find a willing participant who is more knowledgeable in this if you wanna wait," she repeated wanting to make sure he was comfortable with this. They had never done anything this personal before.

Looking her in the eyes Sean insisted," No I am fine I swear. Don't stop now please."

Trusting that he knew what he wanted Angel returned to what she had been doing before he stopped her. Her mind raced trying to remember everything Scott has told her. Which wasn't much and she had been slightly confusing as it was after all Scotty giving the instructions. She was also trying to recall what she had read in the stories since she had understood that more… or she hoped that she had.

Angel gently eased her finger out of him and then back in trying to stretch him and at the same time find his sweet spot. Once she thought he seemed adjusted to one finger she slid in a second again pausing this time thought only long enough to glance up at his face. Sean though was whimpering and begging her to hurry it up.

Angel was not willing to be rushed, as she wanted him to enjoy this. Adding a third finger Angel set about trying again to find the right angle as she twined her fingers letting her fingernails brush him lightly.

With her mouth she had started lightly grazing him with her teeth trying to time her mouth and fingers so that they moved in the same rhythm. When she finally found what she was looking for Sean's gasp and tightening on his hands on her shoulders shocked her so much she completely stopped what she was doing.

"Angel, if you stop now I swear I will strangle you," he growled.

Smiling slightly around him Angel set back closing her eyes and relaxed setting everything into the same motion. This soon had Sean at the edge of his limits ready to cum. Angel sucked as hard as she could taking him as far in as she could get him. Sean came in a rush… Angel happily drank him as he shouted her name.

Angel slowly slipped her fingers out of him and loosely circled him with her lips one last time as she pulled off of him.

Exhausted Sean sank to his knees in front of her cupping her face with his hands. Lowering his head Sean kissed her tasting the mixture of himself and the chocolate. Sean then lifted his head and looked at her before placing a cheek on the top of her head and closing his eyes.

"Thank You Angel," he whispered.

Angel giggled then replied," No problem I told you I came here to cheer you up. I guess you socialize with women after all huh?"

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