And it's been awhile
Since I could hold my head up high
And it's been awhile
Since I first saw you
And it's been awhile
Since I could stand on my own two feet again
And it's been awhile
Since I could call you



The hardest thing I ever did was to leave you three years ago. We had been the best of friends since you moved in next door to me when we were both six years old. Everything we ever did we did together. We started school together. We started dating together. We got our first apartment together. We got into wrestling school together. We made it into the big leagues together. When we bought our first houses, they were next door to each other. Hell, when we decided to move to the United States, we bought our second houses next door to each other. I guess I just needed to prove to myself that I could make it alone. That I WAS something on my own, not just an extension of you.


And everything I can't remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
The consequences that I've rendered
I've stretched myself beyond my means



Well, it took awhile, but I finally made the decision to withdraw from our partnership. So instead of being tag team partners, which we had dreamed of since we were kids, we were going to feud. It was going to be you versus me, and we were going to light up the ring even brighter than we did as a team. Everyone knew that our chemistry out there was the best, but then the fans hated the idea of us fighting against each other, so there went that idea.


And it's been awhile
Since I can say that I wasn't addicted
And it's been awhile
Since I can say I love myself as well
And it's been awhile
Since I've gone and fucked things up just like I always do
And it's been awhile
But all that shit seems to disappear when I'm with you



So our partnership on camera went south. Did I ever apologize for the way I acted when that happened? Somehow I doubt it. You took my temper tantrums and overlooked them, proving yet again, that you were a better man than me. I showed you fear, jealousy, and anger, yet all you ever showed me back was love and friendship.


And everything I can't remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
The consequences that I've rendered
I've gone and fucked things up again



What did I do? In a fit of childish jealousy, I walked away from you. I threw your love and loyalty in your face and struck out on my own. For the first time ever, I was alone.


Why must I feel this way?
Just make this go away
Just one more peaceful day!



I tried stopping by the other day. You weren't home, of course. You seem to be on the road all the time recently. I know it was uncomfortable the two weeks we were both on Raw, before I got injured. I hated that we couldn't talk anymore. I swear, I saw you, and I felt my heart drop, wanting nothing more than to walk up and hug you, but knowing you would have punched me for my presumption. What makes it worse is that I wouldn't have blamed you. You tried to be my friend, but I just kept throwing your love back in your face. How wrong could I have been?


And it's been awhile
Since I could look at myself straight
And it's been awhile
Since I said I'm sorry
And it's been awhile
Since I've seen the way the candle lights your face
And it's been awhile
But I can still remember just the way you taste



Do you know my favorite memory? The first time we made love. I came home from class, and the apartment was lit in candles. That was nothing odd, half the time we couldn't pay the light bill, since we were working for pretty much nothing but exposure at the time. There you stood, next to the kitchen table, wearing nothing but a pair of black silk boxers. You had actually cooked dinner, which was normally my job, and set the table with real dishes, instead of the paper plates we usually used. Handing me roses and a glass of champagne, you lowered your mouth to mine, running your tongue over my lips so softly, before delving in to meet with mine. We barely made it to your bed before your mouth was taking me to heights I had never seen before, and never again would I ever want anyone else. And then, you let me kiss you, and baby, there has never been anything more erotic than the flavor of myself in your mouth, unless it is the taste of you in mine, which I also tasted for the first time that night.


And everything I can't remember
As fucked up as it all may seem to be I know it's me
I cannot blame this on my father
He did the best he could for me



Did you know that I never went to bed with anyone else after you? In my stupidity, I had thrown away the only thing I ever wanted, and nothing else would ever be good enough. I might not be able to ever have you again, but when I die, I don't want the essence of you to be diluted.


And it's been awhile
Since I could hold my head up high
And it's been awhile
Since I said I'm sorry



Well, tonight, I came back to Raw. What did I do? For the first time in three years, I did the right thing. You were out there with Jerky, and I just knew he was going to attack you as soon as your back was turned, so I took it upon myself to attack him first. You looked at me for the first time since I walked out on you after that. All I could do was smile at you. If I had a mic, I would have told you this right in the ring, but I didn't. I just want you to know how sorry I am, about everything. Maybe one day you can forgive me and we can at least be friends again, I won't push for anything more. I mean, you never sold that house next door to mine and moved away, so maybe you still care a bit, right? Maybe next week, I will at least have the courage to tell you that. Oh well, I guess what I really want to say is that I love you, Adam.


End